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summer postcards: man oh mango

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Have not eaten an Alphonso mango (the ONLY mango for me) since moving to an island where such exotic things aren’t always easy to find. That said, I haven’t yet looked because, truthfully, I didn’t think of them until the other day when I stumbled upon a poem written I can’t remember when (although I’m assuming it was when I lived on a different island, where mangos literally grew on trees).

Unripe mango cut from tree,

“Take she,” man says, handing

me fruit. “It go ripe,” he says as I

receive the weight of it and his face

beaded with sweat like jewels, eyes

I’ll never see again except every time

I bite deeply into cool mango flesh,

& feel those smooth orange slices

slide down my throat.

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The poem is a lie. I have never once recalled his face, much less with every mango since, and I’m now thinking this might be down to my discovery of the Alphonso, whose smooth SAFFRON slices magnificently obliterated all memory of mere smooth orange ones… even those cut directly from trees.

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Alphonso season is late March to end of June.

Eat ’em if you’ve got ’em!

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summer postcards: not just a rug

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Once upon a time in a once upon a time house, a carpet lived for almost thirty years, playing silent host to the footsteps of friends and family, to six cats, countless hairballs (and worse), where I would sit each morning, on a particular part of its pattern, facing east as the sun rose, until one day we moved toward that rising sun, bringing the carpet with us, to a house where it didn’t fit and to a forest where it did.

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summer postcards: company

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I am doing yoga on the beach with a visiting two and half year old who is in charge of the doings and I am learning lots of new-to-me poses while enjoying tacos and mushroom soup made of sand and the other day we discovered our shadows and that made one of us laugh a thousand times and made the other one smile in gratitude for such excellent company.

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and sow it begins

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I sow radishes because of how they are with butter on slices of bread I make with almond flour and because of that night a half dozen decades ago when in a rainy cabin there was nothing to eat but radishes, butter, a rye loaf my mother made, and I ate and ate and ate and because it instantly became, and remains all these decades later, one of my most precious culinary experiences.

when thoughts turn to radishes, as they inevitably will — what to do with them? the radishes, i mean

rosehips

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Every year my mother went to the beach to pick the hips of wild roses. Only a short drive from our house, the beach was somewhere we spent a lot of time as a family, swimming, picnic suppers, walking in the rain, collecting stones for a new rockery. The rosehip outings, though, were just the two of us, and always later in the year, in the fall when the hips were ‘ripe’. Not that I helped with the picking, I just liked any excuse to be at the beach. I picked shells and danced barefoot on cool sand while she, some distance away, stood, back slightly bent, leaning over thorny bushes that formed a long line parallel to the shore, filling her apron, or maybe a bag or a pillowcase, holding it open to receive each fat red hip. She would dry them for tea, mixing them with handpicked calendula, chamomile and linden, to make her own special blend kept in tins to enjoy all winter.

I remember how the hips turned the water pink. Magic.

It wouldn’t have occurred to her to buy tea, even if such blends were available then. ‘Making her own’ was a way of being… a farm girl from the Austrian alps, where there were no shops nearby and where everything was homegrown and homemade and medicine came from the garden, the fields, or the forest. Teas were medicine. Even after moving to a medium sized city in Canada with shops at every corner, her way remained homegrown and homemade, our medicine cabinet was the garden.

Someone mentioned roses the other day.

It doesn’t take much.

Another kind of magic.

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I think of her whenever I see wild roses anywhere but it’s only those that grow on beaches that come with a memory made in a millisecond a thousand years ago when a child looked up from her barefoot dance and in the distance saw a woman she knew so well but would never truly know, holding open an apron, or was it a bag or possibly a pillowcase…

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some saturdays ago

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There used to be a little book shop in Toronto, near the corner of Yonge and Eglinton. This was back in the early 80’s. I lived near enough to ride my bike over on a Saturday morning. The shop was above a bakery and I may or may not be imagining that you were allowed to take your goodies upstairs and sit on one of the couches or at little tables (my imagination also recalls a fireplace) and browse the bookshelves. I’d buy the Saturday Star there and a few croissants, which I’d bring home in the basket of my bike. Home being a postage sized single room in the attic of a big old house on a tree-lined street of big old houses. It wasn’t ritzy then. Many of those houses had been divided into apartments and rooms. I lived with my best pal, a black cat named Joshua, who’d spend the day outside and when I came home from work he’d be there to greet me and we’d trot up three (four?) flights of stairs together and settle in for the night. My apartment (a room really) was teensy. Big enough only for a mattress on the floor and a dresser. No couch, no table, a beanbag instead of a chair. and a sewing machine for making most of my clothes while sitting on said beanbag. I had a small television, a shelf for plants and books. A stove, fridge and sink against one wall. It was enough. The bathroom was shared with the teensy apartment next door, where T, who worked for the CBC, lived alone surrounded by giant, unwieldy stacks of old newspapers he couldn’t bear to get rid of and (apparently) mice. (No mice problem at my place given four-legged roommate.) He made a mean kedgeree, T did, and almost always made extra for me and I swear I can still remember the smell and the promise of it as Josh and I walked up those stairs.

All this from a picture that crossed my path the other day. I don’t even know who the artist is, but thank you.

Also… feeling a strong yen for smoked fish and rice.

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and this…

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…. when checking on my scarves, which are daily feeling like metaphors blowing in the wind, I find a nest I assume is a hummingbird’s so I ask an island expert on such things and she tells me that, no, not a hummingbird but a vireo made this beauty, which delights me because I’ve heard what I dared to fancy were vireos chorusing in this particular neck of the woods and now I wonder if this little place will be returned to like a swallow’s box because the very truth of it having withstood the heavy snow, pelting ice, and winds of winter is astonishing and if the vireo owners are maybe thinking of subletting, I’d like to suggest that ‘durable’ would not be an overstatement in any ad.

The picture distorts size. Imagine the cupped hand of a small child. Also, know that it’s hanging in mid-air, fixed to thin branches by spit, grasses, and hope.

A hummingbird, I’m told, makes a nest the size of thimble.

my scarves

floofffing about

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I admit I’ve been easily distracted for the last wee while.

Which often takes me away from my desk and into the forest, tromping through snow with high boots and more recently over thick crusty snow and ice (because it’s March) with cleats.

I stand facing the sun as I watch ducks and sometimes geese on the small river we call a creek and soon the red squirrel and chickadees find me and hint hint hint hint hint that it’s time to walk deeper into the forest where their feeders hang in chickadee glade and where I’m suddenly surrounded by the sound of wings floofffing and whooshing as I add sunflower seeds to a handmade wooden feeder so old and squirrel-gnawed I’ve forgotten where it came from.

Never fails to make me smile, this floofff and whoosh, the sound of it, yes, but even more than that, the reminder of what also is.

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image courtesy of Wikicommons.

there is… difference

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There is the conversation recently about conversation, how differently it behaves and changes or doesn’t, depending on whether conversing while walking or sitting, which leads me to ponder the differences too when chatting via technology versus carrier pigeon or smoke signal, the differences in email versus inky letters (also quill versus Bic), the way one conversation is better by phone and another in person or vice versa, in which case I wonder: is it the subject being discussed or the person being spoken with that makes the difference because it seems also that some of us are simply better by phone and worse in person and best by email and hopeless in ink or so many variations of the above.

The point is this. There is all that.

And there is the pleasure, too, of this conversation possibly never entirely ending.


the art of conversation 101: don’t talk with your mouth full

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there is this

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There is a cat on on the sill of an open window behind me and freshly fallen snow, a pot of soup on the stove made from frozen summer harvests and the other day, a drive to a thrift shop for scarves and a chat with the woman who runs the shop, who was delighted that I bought so many because, she said, they are buried in scarves and I said that’s music to my ears.

I like scarves, I told her. And she laughed.

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