writing is like…

Today it’s a little like traipsing along a woodsy path—pleasant enough, but dense with fallen logs criss-crossing the way in front of you, leafy branches smacking you in the face, foggy rainy mornings sometimes lasting all day.

Strangely, you don’t mind the journey because you like being outside and you get that nature is a little wild. Then suddenly, there’s this clearing full of sunshine and blue sky and you think—oh, yeah, I’ve heard about clearings. (Not that fog doesn’t have its place or that you mind rain when it’s gentle and cleansing; even storms bring a certain excitement.) But these clearings, they’re a nice change with the shrubbery over to the side, less in your face, less trying to trip you up. It’s like you’re somewhere, rather than just hacking your way through brush, hoping for the best.

You can’t see how the path winds and turns from there, and you’re probably right in supposing there’ll be more damp leafy debris waiting up ahead—hills and valleys—massive fjords even—but it doesn’t matter because when you’re in that clearing, the purpose of the journey makes absolute sense—and in that moment, that millisecond, whatever’s up ahead only feels welcoming.

And so you continue…

literary nude

Someone once explained to me that abstract art wasn’t merely a matter of blobbing paint on canvas, which, I believe, may have been my unfortunate description of it at the time. Any artist worth their pigment, I was told, would have an understanding of the fundamentals of structure, balance and light, and would have studied the classic and most difficult subject—the nude—regardless of their own unique and personal style.

It stands to reason then, I thought, that all art must have its own version of the nude, the essential discipline that provides a foundation to which the artist—whether painter, writer, sculptor, chef, musician—is anchored; the percipient vantage point from which they may let imagination take over, adding distinctive colour, texture, words, flavour and melodies.

From Shakespeare to Alice Munro, literature serves as the writer’s nude, the form we study. But merely to read, to admire the body, isn’t enough. We have to know what’s beyond the shape, the words, to look past the skin at the fundamental structures that exist in every story—the style, wordplay, rhythm, the cycle of romantic, tragic, ironic and comedic modes—to find the musculature that gives it the ability to stand on its own before it’s dressed with the details of the action, character and dialogue.

One paints the nude not merely by seeing the obvious, but by appreciating the whole while dissecting its smallest components in order to understand what makes it live, breathe and move.

As writers, reading is second nature—reading the literary nude, however, is a whole other dimension. And until we’ve mastered it, there’s a very good chance we’re simply blobbing words on paper.

places i (don’t) want to go

I don’t suppose there’s a writer who hasn’t doubted their sanity, much less their ability to write at one time or another. I call it the Why Don’t I Just Take Up Basket Weaving Instead And Put An End To the Frustration Already syndrome.

The answer is always the same: I’m not a basket weaver.

Writing is such a mysterious process on the one hand, and so technical on the other. When you hit a wall it’s sometimes hard to know which way to go—should you hammer away, applying more craft, more discipline, until, by god!, you find an entry point through which you can forge ahead—or is that just never going to happen because what you really need to do at this point is set the thing aside, let it marinate awhile, until you’re ready for each other again…

Unfortunately there’s no one to ask.

I heard Wayson Choy speak to a group once; he said how, in a class taught by Carol Shields, he was assigned a tiny square of pink paper and told to write about it. He hated pink, hated it, and he resisted writing until I guess there was nothing else to do—so, reluctantly, he began writing. As it turned out, what he wrote that day would eventually become The Jade Peony.

His point of course—and it’s been made in other ways by other people, but he’s always the one I think of—is that often the answer we’re looking for, the direction we should take, the thing we should be writing about, lies just beyond whatever we resist most.

So when I’m frustrated to the point I don’t even know what I’m resisting because I’m resisting everything… I take a breath and ‘write colour’. I open my thesaurus, flip to the section on colours and pick one that sounds particularly hideous: zinc sulphide, moleskin, Bismark brown.

If it’s bad enough—and I’m lucky enough—it’s pretty certain to take me someplace interesting that I don’t want to go.

darlings and ground cover

Here’s what I’ve learned this summer: whether you’re gardening or writing, you’re toning the same muscles. Consider the process:

You finally begin work on the new thing in the garden, or on new a scene, and a domino effect begins—those flowers can’t be planted as you thought because the bed is all grassy and overgrown with some mystery ground cover that won’t easily be removed and needs major digging out.

So you dig it out. Then you realize that it’s not all bad, that some of it can be saved. Some of it will make good compost or you can spread it under the spruce trees. The rest really is utter crap and must be bagged and put on the curb on yard waste day.

Of course you don’t have any bags, and the place under the trees needs raking. And even after you get back from the store and you’re done raking, you notice these big gaps all over the place where you dug stuff out. Some of those gaps are really nice, like a zen thing, others need filling with fresh soil.

It’s only after what feels like several lifetimes that you can do this sweet innocent thing of planting those flowers (or adding that scene).

And then you stand back and say, jeezus they look great. And you look at the flowers three hundred times and each time it feels so good. It was a lot of work, but they look great.

Unfortunately the area right beside them suddenly looks like crap.

the power of procrastination

 

Today I worked out a few scenes while loosening wild pursulane between the tomatoes which, by the way, gives a nice peppery flavour to salad. Also good with eggs. There’s something about working with dirt that invites my brain to think about writing. Possibly guilt. As in, I should be writing, why am I sowing a bed of arugula… but at exactly that moment the solution to some problem I’m having with chapter whatever very often walks into my somewhat guilty and sun-addled brain and this solution is so perfect that I have to write it down immediately on the back of a seed packet.

This kind of thing keeps me slightly addicted to gardening.

Also it’s a form of procrastination, which I’ve come to learn can actually be harnessed to serve as a tool of productivity. It’s just that you end up being productive in different areas and at different times than you think you should be. For instance, when I should  be gardening, when things are wilting and turning yellow, and the horseradish needs to be seriously attacked with a machete, I often find I’m very inspired to stay inside and write a few hundred words.

[alternate title for this post: Exhibit ‘A’…]